000091 - who curbed my enthusiasm?

the commonwealth games batten passed through where i live earlier last week. there were quite a few number of people standing on the streets waiting and supporting the runner with the batten. i found the experience, limited though it may be from a spectator point of view, somewhat indifferent. in fact i've been feeling quite unenthusiastic about a lot of thing lately.

i'm in a little bit of a conumdrum with my current work situation. i do freelance storyboards for this an ad agency, you see, and i recently came across their ad seeking a full-time storyboard illustrator. my first thought was whether i should apply, even though i'm quite happy with my current setup where i get to work at home at my own pace and don't have to drive to work or what not. my second thought was that, how come they haven't made me an offer yet? now, i remember when i found out about their other storyboard artist (who i know thru a uni friend) and i felt pangs of jealousy, like i found out my boyfriend was already married and i was the mistress! anyway, weird analogy aside, i'm pretty sure i don't want to do this full-time but i wouldn't mind them asking me at least. am i a bit selfish in wishing this?

fact of the matter is, most likely i'll get less work from them in the upcoming months, which means i better start looking for more freelance work and clients (which i want) and start sending my dvd reel out soon (which i intend to but probably not enthusiastic about the response i might get; sending companies and studios your folio/reel cold turkey is tough and 9 out of 10 the response is usually "unfortunately...").

artistically, i've been very unenthusiastic about my own work lately as well, which doesn't exactly help my production or output. i'll just have to cut this bullshit out and just draw stuff
i guess. no use complaining about it.

on a lighter note, one of the coolest thing having jim visiting a couple of weeks ago, was that we chatted about all sorts of crap. apart from our enjoyment of comic books, another thing we had in common was our music taste. he was generous enough to leave a few mp3s for me and i'm currently loving minotaur shock. i generally like listening to music without lyrics and minotaur shock's tunes are right down my audio alley! also check out 8 bit weapon and our last day - casshern official album original soundtrack for some great sounds.

picked up quite a number of comics recently also. GØDLAND vol. 1: hello cosmic is highly recommended. visually tom scioli's art is very very kirby-esque (which i just love) but the smart dialogue by joe casey and awesome colouring and design by bill crabtree and richard starkings respectively make this comic an awesome read and experience or "trip" as they would say! also picked up amazing joy buzzards vol. 1 finally and am looking forward to reading that next. other comics i got included new body bags: 3 the hard way, hysteria: one man gang, latest invincible, 100 bullets, powers, and blade of the immortal. also got the first 3 english death note manga! death note is like one of my all time favorite manga and the first 7 books are highly recommended. currently it's up to about 11 books in japan and the second story-arc is finally building to some shocking changes at the moment. oh finally, i also read the latest spider-man at borders. that new costume sucks much ass!

oh last week, i had to take in my car for a major service. so i had to wait most of the day away. luckily i brought my gameboy micro and legend of zelda: the minish cap along and pretty much played that all day! man, this game is so wicked and addictive. once again, capcom is like the most awesomest video games developer ever!

as for movies, let me see if i can recall them all. wallace & gromit: the curse of the wererabbit (great movie, i liked it more than corpse bride probably because i've always been a fan of wallace and gromit), the island (fantastic, way better than i thought it would be, ruined last year at the box office by poor promos and a trailer that spoiled. great visuals and lots of hot action), boogeyman (a little bit scary and the ending made sense of it all, but not great), cube (wow, i've been meaning to this for ages. very mind-blowing and tense! great use of limitations and a really fantastic suspenseful movie), the promise 無極 (pretty good and has some great visuals and twists throughout. it also has great acting including japanese hiroyuki sanada and korean jang don-gun. i think i'll be drawing some inspirations for a wuxia project for sure), J.S.A. - joint security area (slow start but a very sad and tragic friendship movie directed by my favourite korean director chan-wook park) and azumi あずみ (great action movie by versus director ryuhei kitamura. very dramatic opening scene, lots of blood and spectacular ending. the making-of and extras really killed me though, so friggin' long).